My dear baby

Muhammad Haikal, mama will miss you.

Its time for you to get a decent family to take care of you.

Its really breaking my heart to let my foster son taken away by another family.

He is really a wonderful boy from paradise.

I met him when he was 1 years old.

He is so cute and cuddly, shy and sweet.

I decided to make him as my foster child on the spot.

I don't know why but i felt 'a tick' the moment he came near me.

I told him to call me mama. He said it with a very cute voice.

Oh how i will miss him.

When i got time, i will meet him at his home 'Darul Hanan'.

Yes, he is unfortunate child that his parents died due to an accident.

Soon i heard the news that a family wanted to adopt him, it really breaks my heart.

I couldn't say a word. We are so closed together. I will meet him whenever i am sad or happy.

I know that i'm not suitable to be his parents due to my single status and also his medical status.

But i love him.

Muhammad Haikal, mama loves you.

Its really breaking up my heart when i have to tell him that he will be with another nice family.

'Ikal, nanti ikal dah ada mak ayah baru. Nanti dieorg jumpa ikal. Ikal dah ada rumah best. Ikal dah tak duduk kat sini tau.'

His cuddly face, playing with the ironman.

I have to really hold up my tears as i can't see him anymore, in 2 weeks from now.

My love towards him grows deeper and deeper since the day i met him.

If i didn't come for a long period, he will like 'mama! Ikal ma!

Oh Ikal, mama will really miss you sayang.
I love you so much.
It seems like kita tak ada jodoh.
Goodbye my dear.
I hope that you will remember me always in your heart.
Be good to your new family okay.
Remember all the memories we've been together okay?

I love you Ikal ;')